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I chose this life.
I chose to set myself up as an Outcast.
I chose to hear my best friends
Tell me that I am going to hell.
I chose to hear the words Dyke and Faggot
Spat through scornful lips in my direction.
I chose to lose the love of my Family.
To hear them say that I was sick.
That I was wrong.
I chose to place the dreams
Of marrying the person I love
In a file marked as classified
By popular demand.
I chose to have the doors of my church
Slammed in my face
Because apparently, I am the exception to
"Love your fellow man."
I chose to be chastised
For holding hands in public.
I chose to look over my shoulder
At every corner
Afraid for my life simply because
I fell in love.
I chose this life.
I chose to be a Lesbian.
For anyone who has ever been told that homosexuality is a choice...

Fortunately, few of these reflect my own personal experiences. However the countless Members of the LGBT (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender) community that face these things, and often worse, every day cannot be ignored. No one, and I mean NO ONE, would chose to live through that. And the sooner the biggoted individuals of the world get that fact very clearly implanted into their heads, the sooner we can live on a peaceful planet. <3
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percabeth900 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I told my mom i was a lesbian and she was fine but when my dad found out he kicked me out of the house for four months andi finally got to stay but im shunned by most of my family some are fine with it. School i was called names and oushed tillo ne day i yelled out that "im proud to be a lesbian and whoever has a problem can go to hell" i was left alone after that i still struggle but im proud of who i am and im still looking for that someone who will love me i love this what you made still gives me hope of waiting for that special person
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2015
Thank you for the comment, really. I am glad that something I wrote can have so much meaning for you. I don't know you, but I am proud of you for standing up for yourself and for keeping your head up. It can be hard to do sometimes. No matter what happens, keep on keeping on. You have your mom and your friends, and those are wonderful things. I have every confidence that you will find someone special. Everything gets better and, one day, you will wonder why you were ever worried about the way life would turn out in the first place.

Keep being proud of who you are, there is no greater strength than that, at it looks like you have that all figured out already! :) Keep kicking ass on the rainbow train!
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animegirl966 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2015
I wish I had the courage to live through that. I won't come out. I'm even dating a boy. I wish I could just.........I'm to afraid. I've tried and tried and still each and every time I can't bring myself to say it. Especially because everyone around me hates lesbians. They rant to each other and me about how they hate lesbian/gay/bi people. They have since 4th grade. When I realized I wasn't happy after kissing my boyfriend I chalked it up to 'I love him. Of course I do' and then I realized no loved my coworker. I still have the biggest crush on her even after trying to squash it even after all this time I want to hold her hand kiss her but I know she'll hate me if I ever even mentioned I was a lesbian. Don't you hate that? Knowing that if you tell people who you are they'll hate you. *sigh* sorry for the rant this just brought out a lot of emotions because these are things I fear happening because I know they will if I ever come out (minus the church I don't go to church) *sighs again* this is incredible. It brought out all my emotions and made me cry. Are you a lesbian or bi? How did you realize you were a lesbian? (You do t have to answer just trying to make friends). What's your favorite food and color? (I'm trivia) ;p
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2015
Coming out can be a huge struggle. For the most part, this was written as a combination of stories I have heard from LGBT friends integrated with some of my own experiences. I personally was blessed with a very loving family and aside from losing a couple of "friends" and getting told not to come back to my church youth group, my coming out was decidedly very pleasant. I'm a lesbian, not bisexual, and I've been openly gay for the last 6 years. I was so afraid of coming out because I had a pretty religious family, but every reaction I got was either "okay," "we already knew that," or "I don't agree with this or support it generally, but I love you and support you, so I am happy for you." Concerning the people who I thought were my friends who chose not to speak to me or reacted unfavorably, I am glad they are no longer in my life. They are good people, generally, but I choose not to keep negativity and unsupportive people in my life, and therefore I am happy we are no longer friends. It is unfortunate, but that is a mentality that got me over my fear of coming out. I also had a boyfriend before I came out, and I tried to love him, but there was just nothing there that even came close to comparing how I felt with girls. I was terrified to come out, but I am SO happy I did.

I would never want to go back to being in the closet. Being openly gay was the best, most freeing decision I have ever made. You never know what can happen, and taking the leap for your happiness will be well worth it in the long run.

As for your question concerning how I realized I was gay: it wasn't some big epiphany or anything fancy like that. I just kind of always knew. I guess it really hit me in middle school when I wasn't interested in boys like all of my friends were, but hey, I thought my friend Hayley was pretty fricken cute! XD
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animegirl966 Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2015
That's really cool. Your friends sound awesome. My girlfriend (that I met almost a month ago on here actually) is openly gay. I came out to my mom who told me it could be a phase but that she supported me even if it wasn't (it isnt is what I told her;p) I'm thinking of telling my family. I don't think I'll tell my friends though cause they're all super homophobic.

Lol. Xd
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FlightFan Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
And I am damn proud of it!!!!!! I've never felt more complete and at peace with myself since I did my coming out. Nice piece and so true. :)
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florecentflower Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2014
thanks for making this
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BBChild Featured By Owner Edited Nov 16, 2014   Traditional Artist
Well, given that we, as people, are naturally stubborn, judgemental, and always want to be right, in my humble opinion, I believe all this 'bigotry' and hatred would have been avoided if one thing had never changed in society: privacy.

Perhaps it's just part of our nature as humans to want to be right, that with each generation we've gotten bolder and bolder at telling the world exactly what we think.  Be it with how we interact with others, how we talk, or how we dress.  Miley Cyrus is a great example of this.

A result of this boldness is the deterioration of privacy in society - it used to be, women didn't show more than their ankles in public (because the rest was reserved to be seen by her loved one), but now women can freely dance around in bikinis or less because "I can do whatever I want and the whole world should know that."  It used to be, you never made jokes about racial minorities, going to the bathroom, homosexuals, or any other 'danger topics' except for around corners in whispers to your closest friends - now comedians can shout all these types of jokes out on global television and they don't give a hoot.  It used to be, you never, ever, ever, ever, EVER talked about sex to ANYONE other than your husband/wife and that one "talk" with your parents… perhaps a veeeeery quick brief-over at school about it - now, here we are, talking about sex, and I don't even know who you are! 

Basically, people became bolder, privacy went down the tubes and along with it, shame disappeared.  For everything.  People are not even ashamed if they do a crap job at work anymore.
Now of course, people will argue that the diminishing of that shame was helpful to society - women gained more rights, outspokenness produced a (greater) need for tolerance for differences, and now we are able to educate individuals on sex to help them avoid contracting an STD or getting hurt in some other way.  So it had benefits.  Good came from it.
But I'm sure by now you can see how all three of these examples relate back to the LGBT community… individual rights, freedom of opinion, and openness about sex(uality).  With it comes gay marriage and "pride," but also with it comes bigotry, hate, and a whole host of other issues.

So I have to wonder, if we never got so bold, if we never changed that high level of privacy, if we'd still be facing "homophobes" and hateful individuals.  I wonder, if that level hadn't changed, if people would even be brave enough to speak so hurtfully to each other.  I wonder, if that level of shame hadn't changed, if people would even say zip about homosexuality since it directly links back to sex.  I wonder.
Of course, this wouldn't really "solve" the problem, it would push it under the carpet BUT if we still lived in the kind of society that was incredibly hush-hush about these sorts of "things," would people even KNOW it was an issue?  People would suspect homosexual couples, but they likely wouldn't be brave enough to speak out about it, and likewise, the homosexual couple wouldn't be brave enough to proclaim their "orientation" to the world.  So we'd just get on in life, not caring so much about sex and orientation and rights and expression, perhaps at the cost of "advancement," but at the benefit of getting along better.  People would have no reason to hate you for being a lesbian because they wouldn't know you were a lesbian in the fist place.

But it could just be me and my yearning for our more "private" years (I'm one of those funny people who dislike sex being such an open topic).  What do you think?

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Lilzenko Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2014  Student General Artist
Love this!
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2014
Why thank you!! :3
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LovesHam1211 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014
There are 49 species of animals that have homosexuality, but only one has homophobics, can you guess what species it is?
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RabidCoydog Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Sad, but true.  I love this poem.
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014
Thank you so much for the kind words :)
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Vixenthecatandkeiko Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I wouldn't care if I'm lesbian! I would enjoy what I have! 
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014
Good for you!!! :D
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Vixenthecatandkeiko Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:3
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Hetaliamusicdrama1 Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
<3
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014
<3 to you too!
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fuzed-ice Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014
Hopefully this will help to make people more tolerant, or help in general
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014
I certainly like to hope that it will as well :)
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SrtingOfFate Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2014
This is a really touching poem 
thank you so much just for making it 
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014
No, thank you so much for reading and liking it! It's people like you who encourage me to keep writing :)
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BellaWolver Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2014
I started crying, and though I am strait, this really moved me.
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014
I appreciate you taking the time to read it. I am always glad to hear when things like this can really get to people at their core. You're wonderful for taking the time out of your day to read and comment! :)
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Ekimo13 Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014
I think you have a point, alot of people do live like that and it isnt fair to them at all but they cant help it.
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014
I'm glad you think so, too! Thank you for your comment :)
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TheAmericanKaiser Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Honestly, a church who shuts the doors in the face of someone is not a church of god. It's a poser.

If god didn't want people to be gay, he wouldn't have created the concept. IMO I think it was only PREFERRED that a marriage be hetero. Not a sin.

To be gay doesn't mean you give up god.
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014
I am a practicing Roman Catholic myself and my church is very accepting and loving. I don't think that being gay, bisexual, pansexual, trans, or any other rainbow orientation means that you have to or choose to turn your back on God. It is very unfortunate that some churches claim to be pathways to God, but instead preach hate and intolerance.

I agree with you very much, any church who shuts its doors to anyone is no true church of God.  
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TheAmericanKaiser Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't see why they think god would choose to cast them to hell or anything. IMO god only asked that during the times when medicines were terribly scarce and horrible (considering that I'm under the assumption that god doesn't just hand us stuff so that we can grow and leave his shadow one day to be a more proud and prominent race). Back in the early era's of religion, we had shit medicine and the population would die out if we didn't reproduce. Second of all, I look at it like a play. God is the writer. But he wants us to write our own story. He's just there to chronicle our progression. While he can interfere, he chooses not to out a writers respect for his work and it's characters.
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BrokenAisling Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2013  Student Writer
That poem is beautiful and so trueGirly Love 
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014
Thank you for the kind words, I am so glad you liked it!! :)
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Tamamakitty Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I think I might be bisexual....
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CrikWing Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014
I know this comment was a long time ago, but I still wanted to thank you for reading the poem and taking the time to comment. I am truly sorry that I was not able to do so sooner.

I hope in the time since this comment, you have come to a realization about your identity and found peace with it, whatever it may be. My bisexual friends are some of the kindest, most loving people I have ever met. The same can be said for my straight friends. I hope that, whichever way that "might be" swayed for you that you are happy and living your life the way you want to. :) 
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Tamamakitty Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes and thank you. I actually dated a girl and I was really happy.I realize I am Pansexual. That way no matter what, the most important thing will be who they are. Not gender. Thanks again for replying
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loverofwolves1314 Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2013  Student General Artist
I love thiiissss ^^ and it is hard, because I'm bi and everytime me and my girlfriend act cute in public people always stare and crap and give us weird looks. But it doesn't stop me from loving her
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sistersgrimm5252 Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2013
Thank you <3
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extremerebirth1 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I just don't see how you can be happy about being different? I'm 100% straight, but in many other ways I'm different. If I were gay or bi, I would give up on my dreams, stop doing things and stay high all the time. In fact I'd probably start doing heroin. I'm not gay, I'm straight, but I drink all the time, get high everday, snort pills, and not give a shit. And it's because in a lot of ways I'm a freak. This is why I'll never understand gay people. Gays are different, but are proud of it? How is being so different a good thing? How do you all sleep at night. Being different is awful. If god made one mistake, having everyone different is it. Why am I different? I might be heterosexual, but just like gay people, I am a freak. I should hate myself as much as I hate gays. And I need to ask anyone who's gay. Why are gay people gay? No one really knows, they just have theories. How can you be happy and gay. No one even knows where you come from or why. How can you be happy when your perception of love is a mystery? Why would anyone be proud of being a freak? And before you call me hateful, just know that I already know I am. My hatred is another reason I'm a freak
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xxemoxxgirlxx Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013
every one is differnt thats what makes us human, would you prefer that every one be the same that every one be blonde haired blue eyes skinny 5'5" size 7 shoes live in the same kind of home drive the same kind of car think the same kind of thoughts listen to the same music eat the same foods be the same person ..... thats so fucking stupid people are not robots.... we are meant to be different
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extremerebirth1 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yea, but I'm different in other ways, I'm different inside. I have wierd and strange social skills because I was bullied as a kid. I deserved it though... I was a weirdo, I probably had like Aspergers or something, but I was a freak. I was picked on because I had issues and I was a freak. So all of that was my fault. but now it's fucked with my ability to make freinds, trust people, and form relationships with others. So yea, I am different in a negative way. Ever since I smoked spice for a couple weeks everyday, and stopped, I haven't felt the smae. I feel like a stranger.

And if someone is gay... I just couldn't imagine why they would be proud of it. Gay people are hated all around the world. And you gotta admit, gays are pretty weird. I don't really believe they can truely feel love. I know that there is something in their brain that makes them not like others. I can't imagine why they are that way.
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xxemoxxgirlxx Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
i dont have to admit anything ass hole i am gay and i am proud because im not hiding who i am and i put up with stupid people like yourself all the time and i can feel more love then you will probably ever know in your whole life i have a family and i have support and i have love and i do love and i feel it every day, your a fucking moron.
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extremerebirth1 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I did'nt really know what I was thinking, I meant to say that love is only an illusion, and that gay people percieve that illusion differently. I was trying to say that gay relationships are here out of mystery, and that that made gays fundamentally different. I know gay people can feel love, but it's still different.

But I don't know, I was high and what I said sorta came out differently
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Innerdragon379 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013  Student Writer
I didn't chose to become lesbian... it just happened.
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Somberface Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
But even though it's biologically incorrect and immoral-I can understand that part-I still believe one can love who they want,and I will never judge anyone for sexual orientation
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vampeve-97 Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2013  Student
if you mean incorrect as in the way a man and a woman's bodies fit together and the way two women's or two men's don't, it doesn't matter. LOVE KNOW NO BOUNDS.

:angered: :frustrated:

"biologically incorrect" who the fuck are you to say whats correct and whats incorrect?


so FUCKING TIRED OF INTOLERANCE!!!!!!!
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Somberface Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I never said I was one to say what was and wasn't correct.
And It's not tolerance. In fact, I can honestly say it doesn't matter at all. Not to me, at least.
I have different viewpoints of this now, and now I realized I don't care. It doesn't matter to me.
I'm just a bit confused as to why it matters so much.
I hate that other Christians bash on people for being gay, etc.
and yes, it's not immoral. Love isn't. You're absolutely right.
I realize that now, after hearing so much nonsense about how "any homosexual persons shouldn't inherit the kingdom of God",
"It's immoral," etc. etc.
Just let people be themselves. It shouldn't even be an issue.

Ugh, I hope this all makes sense...
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vampeve-97 Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2013  Student
it does make sense to me, and the intolerance comment wasnt directed at you, it was just a statement of me being tired of hearing how we should burn in hell and shit, just because of who we love.
I'm with you when it comes to being confused about why the hell it matters so fucking much. (sorry bout the cussing, I'm just PISSED.)
thank you, for explaining your views to me, since pretty much anyone else would have just cussed me out. and thannk you for not completely hating us.
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Somberface Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Nah, I don't hate you.
I am a Christian, but I'm not one of those homophobic ones :)
Yeah, I wish it didn't matter at all...
The human race has progressed so far yet so little...
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vampeve-97 Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2013  Student
i know. it really makes me lose my faith in humanity.
if people put as much effort in to progressing society as they do in to progressing technology, maybe, just maybe, we'd get some where.
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Somberface Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I hope so...
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vampeve-97 Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2013  Student
me too.
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